Monday, 19 December 2011

Portraits

Recently....

I have been painting away the time.
Well, some of it.
Birds, to paint them puts my mind at rest while allowing myself some sort of escape.
Not quite the escape in my mind as what I get from painting the 'others' the strange creatures and people from my imagination, but it is something.
Then there is the portraits,to paint them , or draw them as it may be, is an entirely different experience.
I need to be in the mood, the zone, what ever you want to call it.
If not, they become forced and devoid of spirit, or whatever you want to call it that makes them different from my other work.
I begin painting the portraits by preparing the canvas, I add layers and layers of paint, gesso and other textural mediums, then allowing them to dry, I add the colors. Colors of the earth, colors of our skin. Dirt. Fire and sun.
Warmth.
Then begins the rest. I use various mediums, mainly soft pastel and acrylic paint when needed, mainly pastel.
I scribble, I use my hands, I mold the colors into the image we see,
The face takes shape , the features, the elders.
After painting these paintings, I feel recharged, electric and exhausted all at once.
Sometimes it is like having drank a large coffee, all energy and hype, without an outlet. Other times it is sleep that is required.
Whatever the feeling, the painting is finished.
This is why they are the way they are.

Monday, 21 November 2011

Some times I have an idea of what to paint, and at other times I have very little idea of where to begin...But always do begin. Even if it is just preparing surfaces for what may lie ahead.
This weekend I prepared a fair few surfaces, and finished one small painting that is destined for a friend... I still have to photo this work.
My imagination feels a bit jammed, too many ideas cramming to get out, and not enough hours in the day to do all I want to. But isn't that everyone's life??
A painting completed last week.... it began as just some fun with paint, the textures and colors, and then evolved....
'Shine on'
Acrylic and watercolor wash...
No matter where, no matter what, we do shine on.

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

Sometimes I wonder what the future holds. And sometimes I just don't care, I remove myself from the situation and become an observer.

Sunday, 6 November 2011

I am a dreamer.
I always have been, and I cant imagine myself changing.
I used to wish I was different, that I could be a neat and organised person.... but then that wouldn't be me... and really is just a daydream!
This painting "Don't sit around waiting' is about just that... sitting around waiting , it achieves nothing.
Sometimes life throws challenges at us that we can only dream about changing.
I don't loose hope, and I don't stop dreaming.
I don't know what I will achieve, but by doing nothing I would fail in some way.
So I paint.

Saturday, 5 November 2011

The voice of our thoughts can be misleading, but that is okay if we can take a joke.
This is a painting I did last year titled 'Not as it seems' a 11 x 14 inch watercolour.
Looking at other people's lives can be disheartening, living up to other peoples expectations can be a similar experience.
Life is not what it looks like, my life is not one of my paintings.
I don't have the connection within me at the moment to be able to paint my life, with all its conflicting emotions.
How do you paint desperation, fear and at the same time hope and dreams?

At the time this was painted, I felt a deep dissatisfaction in my life, from the outside my life may have seemed ideal. But what one views is only a small piece of a life, not what is behind closed doors, shut mouths and inside our thoughts.
Life is similar in some ways now. 
Life is perfect and sinister all in one.
Life is irony.

Wednesday, 26 October 2011

Freedom lies in being bold.... yes.
Keeping my mouth shut, well what does that achieve ?
Not much.
Painting helps the mind stay focused, and allows for some stress dumping. Well....sometimes!!
New-ish painting, from last month anyhow.
Titled 'You never know what is around the corner'
Fairly self explanatory .... you never know!!
Sometimes we are just walking along through life, not knowing where we are heading... having an idea, a goal. Heading in a general direction is something.
We all do that.
We cant help but do that.
To do something truly extraordinary involves getting off the track , experiencing other things, trying other things.
You only fail by not trying...

Then there are the other things that happen. The path ahead that isnt by choice.
The path that has our loved ones suffering, the inevitabilities of life I guess.
We all know that terrible things happen, but to other people.
Things that  are no ones fault, accidents, illnesses and the like.
I much prefer my dream world. I am a dreamer.No one harms me there.
No one is harming me now, but life itself.
I detest the truth in the saying "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger" I don't want to be strong. I just want things the way I want them.
I cant... I know that. That is life.
It is all Just life.

Friday, 23 September 2011

Another day...another drama...........

Well...
A day of little painting and much wrangling with bureaucracy.
A little achieved .


Framed a finished painting...photo to come.
I prepared one  background and started another.
Painted some background details.... necessary, uneventful and needed.....


So many ideas swimming through my mind... I need to sell paintings, lots of them.
Actually I really need to sell anywhere between $5000 and $12500 before the end of October....
Any suggestions?
Raffle? Busk ? Beg????


Exasperated!
But inspiring times... sketched an idea for a painting 'Back to the wall' is the title... shall share its progress if it progresses.
'Miss Kitty and her dependant friend'
30 x 45 cm
Acrylic on paper
SOLD